my first love was for life

 

I used to stand fiercely by her side all the time 

I used to feel her, to crave her touch and kiss her whenever I had the chance.

 

I didn’t think even once about losing her,

I was careless, dancing without thinking where my feet were landing, knowing she would keep an eye on me.

 

I still do that.

I still dance carelessly.

 

but then I started falling

I felll hard hitting my head, cracking my teeth and knocking the wind out of my body.

 

I tried stop dancing

It was worse.

 

Then I started dancing while watching my feets.

It was nice at first, thinking I had control, stepping over holes and fences.

 

But over time I felt sick of it

but I couldn’t stop

 

My eyes were glued to the ground 

my head stuck in a weird angle.

 

I just kept going 

 

I should probably look up

But I’m just so tired.